Compulsion reaps my internal drive,
Pushing at my self, breaking down my mind,
Mild insanity rages harder,
Urging me to go that bit further,
Just once more...
D
R
I
p
Down my fatal arm,
Scarlet welts begin to form,
I feel so useless again...
W
H
Y
Do I do this?
I wish it wasn't so easy, so hard,
Addiction raves within my veins,
Crippling me,
F.O.R.C.I.N.G its way O/U/T
Of me,
H
E
L
P
M
E
Fight this painful circle,
I want to spill no more,
I want to bleed no more
Still I ( slash ) the skin,
Sheer repulsion driving me like this addiction,
D
R
I
P
D
R
I
P
Wrapped up again in bandages,
Hiding my sinful addiction,
Choking me with sobs of *REGRET*
Betrayal of my better half,
This can't go on....
This can't go on....
Help....
Author notes
X-Queen-Georgia-X
This is about my self-harm hell
A contest entry
- cutters??? by Lonely Christina.
600 points, ended September 19, 2008, 17 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - A contest reguarding self-harm. by AutumnsFlame.
700 points, ended December 13, 2008, 27 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - -Theres N o t h i n g More [Addictive] Than A Wound Thats [S e l f I n f l i c t e d] by MarkiMalady.xo.
650 points, ended July 23, 2009, 26 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Comments
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Thiis is a very emotional wriite i guess knowing a part of the [old] me could relate, i liked the way it was wrote, how the certian words were
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that. haaa; (that was a epic fail on my part, even trying)
Great.
Shellz -
Wooww!!
you definatly show the struggle and the pain
this like almost made me cry...
Greeeeeeatt write! -
very amazing im in love with this poem
and that how i am.......
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This was good, but just a tad on the cliche side (Especially the title). I think the style was good, bit as for the content, I feel like I've read it before. I think you should try using a metaphor. I think you have the talent to pull it off. Thank you for entering my contest.
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it's not always a complete choice.
'i feel the blood,
seeping through endless hills
of hated skin'
that's how one of mine starts -
Addiction is hell, self inflicted, for we choose to do what we do. I know it's not easy to say no to a compulsion. I am a drug addict in recovery for the past 12 years. It is not any easier. But God knows it's much netter on this side, for me and my family. I still have the urge to get high but why go back? When I recall the hell, and tremendous pain...I think not.
It is good that you are asking for "help" here. It is on the way! Very emotional work here poet. Hold on and never let go.
Much Love ♥
Renee
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Sorry it took me so long to comment you work again. This is sad and full of emotions. Stay strong! you can overcome all this , but you gotta believe in yourself. great write!
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Spectacular! Tis Has to be the most uprising cutter poem I've read in over 4 months searching through Ap gothic poets (Side my ap momma she's the best). This was sensational, gripping, mind bending, I just cant find words to explain it in material matters, The punch was killer, I loved it. I qoute that this is the one of the best cutter poems I've read that packed the punch of a .44 magnum through the heart! Great write lass!
Sincerely,
Deathwolf Tasagka
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everyone addicted to self harm wants help but at the same time they are happy cutting away at themselves. i feel your pain in this, when you think it will get better when you cut but after you do it you are ashamed of scars and another downfall...good job and thanks 4 taking the time to enter.
xoxo- christina -
This is really sad but I can relate if you need to talk I can listen please stay well take care of you much love always
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Ok, I don't usually go for Dirty pretty...but I do like this piece...the boldness of the background hits home too..
Bravo and good luck in the contest.
Sis
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my beutiful auntie
if you ever need to yalk to someone about this you can talk to me
im sorry you have been through this but i know you can make it through this addication as it is an addiction you can brake it ; but it does not take away from the fact your an amazeing person and your faults mistakes what ever you wish to call them just meake you more ebautiful in the eyes of those who love you
and i do love you -
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Thanks hun I'm just having a terrible day I can't even breathe today.....just such a violent depression...but I'll be okay eventually....
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i know you will
an i know you will beat this
blessings on you -
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Thank you for your kind words my niece, blessed be xx
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