Betrayal is what I feel

you say is no big deal that it didn't mean a thing
and you don't understand why am I so upset
it was just a flirt and you didn't sleep with her
I wish that for a moment we could trade hearts
so you could feel how you just tore it apart

how my breath was caught when she kissed you
her face moved ever so slow you could've pulled away
but you stood frozen waiting for her patiently
a decision you made in that split second to welcome it

the look of desire and lust you could not fake
it squeezed at my heart and dug deep inside like a blade
body heat being exchange so close you were to her
as you told her she looked great and stared at her breast
if you only knew the deep price I just paid
as I watch you pass me by and walk away

wanting to cream out in agony my heart was bleeding profusely
but my tongue I did held and my tears refused to fall
not wanting to make a show I simply sat unable to move
wondering what just went on in front of my eyes

you don't know about the pain
that a heart feels when its betrayed
I hope that you never do...
for its worse than a physical pain that can be healed
My heart is in anguish I can barely take a breath...
as I sit and wait for you to come my way

We walked in silenced to the car
and I'm still holding on to my composure
I just counted steps.. so I could make it ok....
wanting to run... wanting to scream
but all I did was walk and count my steps...

you saw my face and you got mad
because I was making a big deal of this
your only excuses was you don't remember what you said to her..
you didn't kiss her she kissed you..
if you wanted you could've slept with her
but you didn't you chose not to....
should that make me feel better..??
what part of the excuses would have healed my heart???
your a man.. thats your excuse..
but thats an excuse I heard many times before
I feel like I've fallen in the same trap once more....

tell me love will this be what will tear us apart??
a simple kiss given by slutt
and some flirtfull words told by you

I want to breath but even that hurts
If you only knew how much my heart aches..
tears falling from my face I could no longer contain the pain
you just stared with a blank face... unmoved...
upset that I was making a big deal out of nothing...

you said you were sorry but there was no remorse....
you really didn't see that you did anything wrong
I looked in your eyes and nothing did I see
that said you were truly sorry....
instead of making me feel better it made me feel worse..
but I held my pain and bit my tongue

got to the house in silence and went to bed
I put my arms around you as I always do
but the warmth and security I always felt was gone
and I cried in silenced mourning its loss
tilled my tears ran dry
and exhaustion finally consumed me

I woke up early sleep eluded me
memories of you and her haunted my mind
I wish that I could turn back time.....
but the hands of time ignored my hearts cry

your sleeping soundly without a care 
not realizing my heart is in despair...
you think is just a jealous rage,,,, just a girly fit..
If you only knew how much it hurts me to even breath....
I didn't realize how much I really loved you until today
when my heart broke to pieces because of your mistake
jealousy is not what I feel
is betrayal that my heart screams..!!!
because it trusted you in its fragile state

I want to pretend that everything is ok
but my heart keeps bleeding with each passing day
its been torned to pieces by your careless mistake