My Personal Heroin

Stealing the air from my lungs
    that conveniently skipped heartbeat
    content in asphyxiation
The scent of pure happiness
    your exhalations
    I feed off of those rose petals
I could catch them if I wasn't worried
    everything would fade
Vocal strains pulse through my veins
    hold that syringe tighter
    immerse it fully
I won't mind

If I can forget addictions
Quit these restrictions
          I quilted in my soul
If I can forgive my mistakes
Forget those razors of thought
          finally a chance

No words
Not mine
Not even Poe's

Could explain this
      as I fade into a full moon
Floating on and on
    into a swimming head
Drinking my own tears
    of withdrawal

Only to remember
    it's not the end
    it's barely the beginning