I want to die a bloody death.....

my heart is aching.
i feel the pain.
nonstop.
your making me wanna die inside...i'm screaming.
help me.
hoping someone will hear me.
but they don't.
i'm alone.
i deserve this.
i deserve the pain.
i want to feel again.
my mind is getting sicker.
all theses fucked up thoughts.
of Shit i wanna do.
slice slice the pains still here.
its different.
it feels good this time.
i'm numb.
it hurts to feel anything else than numb.
i don't want this feeling to leave
i feel the rush as the blood gushes out.
then goes i'm screaming in my mind help me!
but knowone comes.
i'm not loved.
i'm not wanted.
i'm hated.
i want to die.
i cut to feel.
i cut the heart aching pain away.
i cut to express my feelings.
i cut to show of how much i fuckin' wanna die.
i cut to see blood
oh only if you knew
only if you knew
the way i feel
slice slice
there's a razor against my wrist
i press it so hard against my vain
there goes that screaming inside my mind help me
but down deep i'm thinking i don't want this to end
i see blood.
this time it wont stop.
i think of going to get help.
but this time its to late.
its to deep
my pain is worse
i feel blood pooring out of me
i don't want this.
i don't want this.
all i wanted was you
why did you have to hurt me?
ilovedyou
but it's all over
you got what you wanted
i'm dying
suicide is less painful when you don't think of it when your doing it.
you feel numb
the feeling i love
the only feeling i feel because of you
slice slice....i'm dead.