Before I was old enough
To understand in any way
Before I really got the reason
All the kids laughed at me
I tagged behind you everywhere
You could do no wrong
Before I saw all your weakness
I thought you were so strong
Before I heard all the whispers
Figured out the matching truths to your lies
Before I realized you were the cause
For so many of my mothers sighs
Before the years and months of silence
Before the endless pain
Before I wondered if you were the reason
Why I was slowly going insane
Before I looked in the mirror
Before I saw you staring back at me
Before I realized you were the personification
Of all I prayed to never be
Before I saw you lying in that bed
Before I knew your end was near
Before I had absorbed the pain
and quietly ignored the fears
Before I kissed you good-bye
Knowing without you my life would cease to be
I was just your baby girl
believing you'd always hold me
JayLynn
Copyright 2004 All Rights Reserved
To understand in any way
Before I really got the reason
All the kids laughed at me
I tagged behind you everywhere
You could do no wrong
Before I saw all your weakness
I thought you were so strong
Before I heard all the whispers
Figured out the matching truths to your lies
Before I realized you were the cause
For so many of my mothers sighs
Before the years and months of silence
Before the endless pain
Before I wondered if you were the reason
Why I was slowly going insane
Before I looked in the mirror
Before I saw you staring back at me
Before I realized you were the personification
Of all I prayed to never be
Before I saw you lying in that bed
Before I knew your end was near
Before I had absorbed the pain
and quietly ignored the fears
Before I kissed you good-bye
Knowing without you my life would cease to be
I was just your baby girl
believing you'd always hold me
JayLynn
Copyright 2004 All Rights Reserved
Author notes
This is about my father. Before his death. Before all the drama and confusion and f*kups. Before all that he was my daddy and I was his baby girl. Sometimes I wish I hadn't been a daddy's girl because a lot of the things I saw I wouldn't have. But in everything there is a lesson and in love there should never be regrets. Before it all I was a Daddy's Girl...
Written January 21st, 2004
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Comments
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Well written!!!
JayLynn,
This was a very sad poem. One that came right from the heart -I can tell!
I don't have much to say about this, sorry, I am speechless.
That must have been hard on you though. Try to remember the good memories that will last a lifetime! Keep them close to your heart.
Keep on writing from the heart and soul.
Sincerely,
Nelak
BRAVO, JAYLYNN!!!!!!!!
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aw wow, is this about your dad? cuz if it is then ive been through the very same thing... this is a very touching poem
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Wow...that is really touching...and very heartfelt...I liked it very much...great write...keep it up and good luck...Luv Caz


