My eyes shut, little lights swimming among the darkness
and your face comes to me,
I look at you and I smile and everything seems to be okay.
This image, within my mind, is all I have left of you,
and it's starting to fade,
blurring at the edges,
wisps of you becoming lost into the blackness...
lost within my memories.
Each day my heart pangs,
pangs with guilt and pain...
knowing that you, the only woman I've ever loved,
are gone...
gone.
And it's my fault you're gone,
my heart weeps for you,
aches for you...
never will it feel complete without you,
other people fill the gaps...
but, there's a space reserved just for you,
my love,
just for you.
Carrying you in my arms,
kissing your sweet neck,
memories gnawing at my heart,
stinging my eyes.
I never gave up on you my love,
I never let go,
during every moment I was with you.
I destroyed you,
but, we made each other complete,
a bitter irony,
that cleaves my heart in two.
But, shush now darling...
because my love will always be with you,
you, the woman I love.
Author notes
I am currently with a male partner, Dom, who fills my heart with so much happiness, but, there will always be a space reserved in my heart for her.
Rachel, died from a drug overdose... and I was the one that got her addicted to the drugs... and that guilt will live with me forever. I wasn't there for her and I gave her the ammo that took her life; but, our love for each other was so strong and I love her still.
I've had female partners since, but, I have never been able to love them... I doubt I will ever be able to love another woman... Rachel was truly the only woman for me.
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- Have you ever really loved a woman? by Myjoy.
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Comments
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Very touching, it is a bitter sweet love this one is. I hope you too will stay away from the drugs. Thank you, and good luck.
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