you make me realize how much I hate myself
and you make me wonder why I ever thought there was a thing called love
this physical attraction pulls me in
but your attitude repulses me
my heart and body fight with one another whenever I see you
and that adrenaline spike I get when you walk in the door,
yeah, that needs to stop.
I tell myself that I'm done with you
that I won't look back
that there's nothing you can do to make my self loathing any deeper
I tell myself many things
I want to know you
to hear, smell, taste and touch you
your smile makes me happy
and the sound of your voice
it makes me shiver on the inside
I'm lost lost lost
and I promised myself that I would never let it happen again
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