I Cheated Myself

My dude is my everything...
Now he is on he brick of becoming my nothing,
I been sharing with him hard thoughts on my mind,
In result, it's been suppressing our time
of happiness & togetherness,
I should have remained thoughtless,
Undress the issue that I love him less,
I feel as if he's the best,
but I had to confess my affair with another,
before we went any further,
I rather him know what I am doing,
then for him to be clueless,
I'm depress, a little I guess,
but not much because I did this to me!
I leave my man with the decision of my heart,
I hope we don't depart,
but I understand if we can't be,
but see,
I no longer feel for my affair
I'm going to grow in loving my dude more!
I just need him there,
So he either do or he don't,
either he will or he won't.
If he do, then I will.
If he don't, then I can't live.