everything

I’m weak; you say that I’m fragile,
And in a sense I suppose you’re right…
Because here I am crumbling under our foundation
Of what once was, what is, and what is yet to come.
I am so broken; I don’t even know the definition of conscience.
[In fact I am completely callous to the concept]
All of these images flood me, and I play them over and over again.
Maybe I am trying to figure out where things went wrong,
[Inside I have always known]
Or maybe I’m just trying to teach my heart how to forget-
What I thought was the best thing that’d ever happened to me.
Hands down, I gave you everything.
I gave you everything I was,
Everything I am,
And everything I have the capability of becoming.
But yet it was not enough for you, I was never enough.
[Not even in the beginning when I was so young and naive,
With dreams and aspirations,
And I believed in fairy tales and happy endings]
I came out more hurt than when I went in.
[I used to hold such life]
You once told me that if you didn’t know any better,
You’d swear the secret of life,
Was resting in these gorgeous grey eyes of mine,
[You always we’re such a sweet talker]
But now how come you can’t even look at me at all.
Is it because you’re scared I’ll look right through you?
You’re scared I’ll finally know what crimes you’re guilty of.
Maybe it was all too much to ask for in the first place,
And by expecting nothing at all I was still expecting too much.
You, my dear have a craving not even I could cure.
And that says everything, and yet nothing at all.
I’m not even going to wait for you to say goodbye,
Because in my heart I know that this is the end.
Rock bottom and I’ve been here before.
In my head, I’ve already rehearsed what’s next…
You walk out the door,
Taking everything I was,
Everything I am,
And everything I have the capability of becoming,
Right along with you.