and I close my eyes..count to ten.. and do all it takes to feel free again..
Wish I was something more than this,
This feeling.. this emptiness.. this hole in me
This habit has it's hold on me,
This habit... this habit has me by the wrists.
And I'll try to move on; pretend the ache isn't there
This itch a bit too deep to scratch
I'll wear my heart instead of these scars
I'll try to be a little bit more than me
You see, I never felt good enough
I still... never see the reason in over-achieving
There's so much worse I could put myself through
Yet it just isn't good enough to bleed
When you're so very numb and nothing seems to work anymore
Though every time I look at you;
You're eyes never seem to meet mine,
I can hear your heart break; the tears in your eyes
The way you sigh when you see my sleeves
So
For you... I will push this aside
For you... I will let go
For you... I will smile
For you... I will try to be
only a little bit better than me
Author notes
Xombii
Just find someone you love and do it for them.
I quit cutting for my best friend... it was a pact we made. She'd pull herself out of drugs if I stopped cutting. It works when you work with someone you love and trust if you're ready.
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i love your authors notes thts so sweet, i wish i had sumone to make a pact like tht with. "This habit... this habit has me by the wrists." this is my fav line you expressed quitting cutting very well
xoxo- christina
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