Just Missing The Memories

Why do I feel like I’m on the edge of waiting.
You say things that have me so confused.
I know you’d never tell me that.
But is it truth from your drunken state.
And when I think of the nights together.
So lost in passion with you.
I know it doesn’t mean anything.
But at the same time I know it isn’t nothing.
You enter my thoughts when I least expect it.
Instead of others it seems you’ve been turning to me.
Maybe it’s only because I care the most.
Or do you feel more than your saying.
Some moments I just don’t care about anything.
And other times I find myself anxious to see you again.
You were a stranger to me.
And yet it felt so amazing for us both.
Sure we could say it was from the sex.
But deep down it was so much more than that.
We had a connection like no other.
Something that still surprises us when we think about it.
I wish I could be closer to you.
But my distance is where I stay for now.
We can miss each other all we want.
But time is all we can share with one another.
Just killing it till we meet again.
Till you hold me so lovingly like you did then.
I want to be lost in your eyes again.
I want to run my fingers through your soft hair.
I want to lay wrapped in your warm arms.
So close to your skin that I can’t get inside of your body.
I simply want to hear you in person rather than over the phone.
At times those precious moments seem like nothing but a dream.
If it hadn’t been for the physical then I would say that’s all it was.
It all still takes my breath away.
Leaving me speechless with only sweet memories of us together.
Time seems to go so fast for us to be again.
And then it’s so slow on the rainy days.
Where I get lost in music thinking of you.
How we talked for hours and didn’t run out of any topics.
How we were so content listening to Pink Floyd in the dark.
In the dark is where all of our magic took place.
The night of our first kiss which you were so daring to take.
Through the night we just held hands walking around.
You always did have me close to you.
Like if you let go I’d just disappear on you.
You don’t know how that made me feel.
I felt noticed finally like I was worth it to you.
I thought the times you walked away from me.
Was just to get away finally since you had enough.
But you came back and that final bye.
I know it was hard on us both.
Having to end everything that felt so natural.
I want to make time skip so I can have that back.
But it’s okay for I know all this waiting will be worth it.
I know when we get the chance we’ll run.
Hunting the answer to all of our desires.
Ending this cruel craving we want to feed.
And when we do it’ll be wonderful like before.
I just wonder how hard the parting will be.
But I guess in the future we’ll see how it goes.
It won’t matter to me as long as I get to see you.
Getting that one more fix that’s driving me insane.
Just inhaling you into my world again.
I will be satisfied with anything I get.
As long as I can touch or see you just once more.