What If?

I keep tellin' myself I don't love you
I keep tellin' myself it was all just a game
Honey, you gotta stop bein' a pathetic lil girl
Who dreams of a romance like this.

But people can laugh and scorn
At me for givin' my heart to you,
But it won't make the bond any less strong--
How can that not be real?

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Step up and start bein' your old self
Who never cared about anyone
Blissful ignorance found in a selfish existence
No one can hurt you if you're alone.

But no one's hurtin' me; I'm hurtin' myself
And if bein' alone means no one
Can uncover me when I bury myself,
Then take my hand and never leave me.

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If only I could realise how unrealistic this is,
How stupid my fairytale love seems.
Darling, just give it up, and see what's real
Look towards the future you always wanted.

But if that's the future I always dreamed of,
Then why at night do I feel so cold
And just want to pull you close--
Your warmth to surround my soul?

~

I keep sayin', one day I'll realise
How fanciful my immature lil story was
Someday I'll be awakened by reality's call,
And will be my usual independent self again.

But what if I never realise?
What if my fantasy does come true?
What if I sleep in imagination forever,
And find not a new me, but just another side of me?

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What if I really do want you,
And you really want me too?
What if I never desire to be alone again,
And "happily ever after" does exist?

What if I just want to hold you forever...
...Will you be there to hold me too?