The One to Leave

I don't quite know
How to say everything that's on my mind.
You were always there for me,
and now I have one day to tell you everything that I feel.

How can I get it all out?
Will you even be able to understand?
You say that you accept the fact that you are about to die,
So why am I the one who can't seem to get it through my head?

I love you isn't enough,
I'll miss you doesn't even begin to describe the emptiness I'll feel inside when you are gone.
Forever is too long for me to imagine.
Goodbye means too much to say.

I'm afraid that it's not possible
for me to tell you everything I need to.
I just can't get out that one word that everyone says I need to say
because goodbye seems too permanent this time.

You were my strength, my life, my heart.
You changed me in so many ways that I can't even begin to explain.
You truly made me the person that I am today, and I can't thank you enough.
Now this disease is taking you away from me, and it's just not fair.

So dry my tears one more time,
Before you're gone forever.
They'll have to tear me away from you,
Because I am not going to be the one to leave.