My efforts go unnoticed.
I feel I am no longer worthy.
Do you hate me so bad to torment me so?
I have only one dream...
To be happy with you.
But my demons are fed by you everyday of my life.
You won't let it go,
Yet you won't let me go
And you won't let me prove myself to you.
What are you holding on to, if all I make you feel is empty?
You really hate me.
Am I to be punished for all time for what I so regretfully did?
Will you ever love me the way you once did?
My mind is flooded with thoughts of you, as I lay in my deep dark solitude.
It doesn't drain.
Not ever.
My heart bleeds for you.
And even the simplest things I crave from you are witheld.
I bring myself so low for you without a simple aknowledgment.
The tiniest piece of you I would adorn always.
But not even that, do I get.
No more I love yous
No more I miss yous
No more sincere kisses.
I am nothing to you.
And all the pain and misery of knowing that, cuts like razor blades.
I've done things that I'm not proud of,
I said things too.
You say I'm not trying.
But how could I not be, when all I do is try to please you?
There is no ounce of tenderness left in you.
Instead you turn your back on me and say "fix it"!
How else can I?
If what I do now isn't enough, will it ever be?
You're heart is cold and made of stone.
You're not the man I used to know.
If you love me the way you claim to, I would not be crying.
I'm afraid to speak for fear of what you'll say next.
For every word I speak, everything I do brings anger to you.
You will hear none, and you will see none of my pathetic cries for you.
I am a bird Wanting to sing praises and adoration for the one I love.
And you are willingly deaf to me.
How then can I fix what I have broke?
My glue won't stick.
My knots are all wrong.
One breath from your lips and it falls apart.
I try
I really do.
Over and over again.
But its never good enough for you.
I fear it never will be.
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Wow.
I'm not ashamed to admit that upon reading this one, my throat tightened with a mist in the lower eyelids.
Written with powerful emotion. Glad you had the courage to write something like that and thank you for sharing it.
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Aww...
Didn't mean to make you sad lol
But I do find that my poems inspired by my own personal depression turn out to be the better ones.
Thanks so much for reading
I truely appreciate it.
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This really reminds me of a book that I'm reading at the moment called the Cockney Sparrow - the main story is based on the daughter, but her mother is a drunk who is a good woman beneath it all, but has fallen in beneath the wrong man; loves him desperately, but he's no good - but she comes through it with the daughters aid, and overcomes the alcohol. Your poem here just very much reminded me of it.
No crits. I feel this came from the heart, so Bravo to you. -
this is the best poem i have ever read...there are millions of women feel same kind of emotions...but they had a hard time to expressing them...but here you have really shown them how to break their silence...the thread of the poetic expression is very strong....all the best....
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Thanks so much for reading
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thank you I appreciate your comments.
Thanx for reading.
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very painful and written with a lot of deep emotion...
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I'm flattered.truely I am.
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this is great, as i ahve stated before, you are a great poet, and i hope to read more from you. great job ^^
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I wrote this about a month ago in the event that all that took place. So this ones more from the heart.
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