~The picture of you together~

How could i let this happen?
The pain is untolerable...
My heart is shattered...
The picture of you together...
Who knew my heart would react like that..
She is looking at you so in love.
I imagine that is what i must look like looking at you...
How could I do this to her?
Oh my god, she loves you so much..
Just look at her, so happy, so in love, so satisfied..
What is going through your mind as you look into the lens?
The smirk on your face.....
Is it mocking me or her?
It makes me want to hit you...
Ask you what the FUCK is wrong with you...
Why the FUCk would you play with our hearts like that?
But i cant even be angry at you...
My mind feels disgust at myself, at you...
But my heart feels pain, an ache, a loss..
Do i even want you to be mine?
I HATE you...  I LOVE you...
Let me say goodbye....
I am so weak...