I caught myself
the other day
drifting through
your opinion
in feelings that I couldn't feel
my lips
still tasting
last nights remains
of your cockiness
you were raw and with intention
whispering syllables
in my left ear
I hid away
in my magic closet
where only thoughts dwell
you seemed flawless in my wild infatuation
that I painted with tears
in the dry desert
of scaled skin
the mirror squints at me
awakening
a poem
and rips open an urgent need
to fuck you sideways
because cold can be fatal
in a personal
afterthought
in late October
the wind rustles leaves
fluttering
like my heartbeat
that you squeezed
with your hand
sometime before early spring rains fell
you were a prick then too
with mechanical movements
that probed my eyes
for signs of life
but there’s something about the ocean
and twisted bone piles
that collect
in long summer sighs
pigs that fly from pale cracks in the sky
and lullabies that pulse
inside the white of a lotus flower
the rhythm in our conversations
lies underneath
vulnerable
seemingly disjointed
that keeps the empty spaces full
between nothing to say
you became imbedded
in my flesh
and lived under the freckled freeway
of my skin
hibernating there
in my bright sunlight
surrounded
by autumn breezes
I linger
in bits
of eternity
in exchange for emotion
and I only pretend
that god just might care
as he wraps his wrath around my neck
in a strangle-hold
even you can't break
I wasn’t trying to find you
when you came into view
a stones throw away from Jupiter
spewing vomit
in the voice of water
you settled into my space
and sucked silence
from my lungs
chained me to notions
that normal
exists
somewhere between the sky and ground
it heaves poetry in the afternoon
and exposes my last nerve
9/6/08
Adding your comment:
I loved this, gurl, it held such impressive imagery and just gorgeous lines. I can't write them all down, but just suffice it to say, you definitely caught me and if my past works have just been the tiniest influence in this, then I am thoroughly honored and humbled to be reflected in its light.
It really is.
Good luck
