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It Doesn't Stop Til The End.

A habit,
An addiction,
A curse.

It's what ruins your life,
But it doesn't let you know.
It quietly kills everything you've
dreamed of.
Everything you've created.

Confidence,
Happiness,
Hope.
Everything is ripped away
and crushed.

You see it happening,
you don't expect it.
Everything is fine until reality
comes one day.

One day out of all the others.

Reality comes and hits you
harder than anything before.

And it's that day.
That you realize
that you have hurt
your self, others, friends, family.

you've destroyed your life,
and all you want to do is
make it all go away.
Make it disappear.
But in order to do that...
you decide to turn to
what caused it all.

Except now you
cant feel it anymore.
You don't pay attention.
You don't realize what
your doing until you pull it away
and see the damage you've done.

You don't know why you keep on
doing this.
You cant feel it anymore.
It ruined your life.
But i guess that's the secret of addiction.

No matter what you do,
Nothing is as satisfying.

But it gets harder to hide
It gets deeper.
it takes over and becomes
the only thing you worry about.

And even though it's the destroyer...
you keep giving it what it
wants.
You keep feeding the addiction
you keep going.
You go deeper.
You run out of skin.
Move to new areas.
Everything falls around you
There's no where to hide anymore
And then...


It's all over.
It ends.
You see the side that
the living only dream of.

Is it amazing?
Is it what we all fear?

That's the only thing to come of it.
No longer having to wonder anymore.

Was it really worth it?

Author notes

I was barely 13 when I wrote this. I wrote it right after my birthday.

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  • nobodys-girl
    August 13

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    i cut for years before i finally found the strength to quit. it is an addiction, and it kills me to see people do it now. thank you so much for entering my contest and best of luck.


  • liquidmindforever gold member
    April 5

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    rules RULES rules RULES

    Dear Poet,
    Thank you for entering your poem into my contest I SIT and I ROCK and I WAIT.
    Please return to the rules of this contest and although it may seem unnecessary to you, they are there to be followed as a disciplinary measure to teach all of us to wake up and pay attention to what others are asking of us.
    You have not followed my rules and therefore I have not read your poem.
    If and when you choose to do so, please advise me and I'll be happy to read your entry.
    With best wishes,
    liquid


  • HereComesTheSun
    January 11
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    had a rant feel yet it worked perfect great work


  • Bailey Girl
    December 6, 2008
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    Wow, it made me want to cry a bit. It's brilliant. Please add your AP name to your author's notes


  • Candy Morphine
    November 15, 2008

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    the fifth line shows that there is some sort of hidden agenda, which is great.
    the last line in the 3rd paragraph was excellent emphises
    the 9th stanza was a great interpretation to relapse. whilse the nest one felt like it was numbed.

    i can really relate to this poem. I like how it talks as if instructing you on how the blade ruins your life. the language is fairly simple but effective.

    this poem is raw and heartfelt. you can tell it was written upon experience.


  • BleedingBlackTears
    November 12, 2008
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    very well done. sorry i would write more but im out of words,pain does that to you.


  • Raining Kisses silver member
    November 11, 2008

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    sensational

    this is such a gritty write t seems to doan angry little march in myhead nice write indeed thanks for sharing


  • chilali
    October 28, 2008

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    Thank you for your entry! This poem is a very great and strong write! Please enter "the itsy bitsy spider climbed up the water spout" in your AN. If you've read the entire contest page, you'd know why Thank you once again and good luck!


  • whispernthedark Greeters member
    October 25, 2008

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    Thank you so much for the opportunity to read your wonderful poem. Unfortunately my contest was for a one line poem, so this does not qualify to be judged. Good luck in the other contests.

    ♥
    whisper


  • Captain Jenny
    October 22, 2008
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    Very dark and deep. Great write and thanks for entering


  • Shya
    October 11, 2008

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    Deep, dark, thought-provoking. It's truly haunting, how this can happen, and you describe it with such truth and emotion. I love the ending, how you ask, "Was it worth it?"


  • Shannon62875
    October 9, 2008

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    Im kinda confused... was this write about drugs... thats was it kinda seems like to me... I dont think that was one of the options.. Although this write was really good!!!

    keep up the great work


    Shannon*Leah


  • RatherImaginative silver member
    September 30, 2008
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    This is a piece that well describes how chained someone in the grips of an addiction is. Hopefully, this is not written from personal experience . . . yikes! I will have to remove it from my contest, however, since it has already been entered in others. Feel free to enter another, though.


  • RunningFromReality
    September 27, 2008

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    Wow, very deep connection here. Very nicely done. It really shows the painful side of an 'addicion'. Thank you for entering, and good luck!

  • xXmiranda-maeXx
    September 25, 2008

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    wow i really like this, it's beautifully worded and keeps the readers attention well. great job and good luck in the contests.


  • ScarsFade
    September 24, 2008
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    never is it worth all the pain, but at the beginning that's not really what it's about. Anyways this poem was amazing...i loved it....fit the contest perfectly. The structure fit your stlye and your rhythm was so fluid...just phenomenal....good luck...never stop writing...scars.


  • cre8tiv-writer
    September 23, 2008
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    Great job!! I can feel the desperation and revelation from this write.


  • catalyst.
    September 22, 2008

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    This poem really hit home for me. Excpecially the last line because I've been asking myself that for a while. You summed that all up into words. Great job

    you've destroyed your life,
    and all you want to do is
    make it all go away.
    Make it disappear.

  • X ShatteredSoul X
    September 8, 2008
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    omg, thats such a great poem, i love it!!! and it made me cryy

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