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Just Like Emotional Shit!

Just Like Emotional Shit! 

By: Mrs. Lady Enthralling

 

 

 

I feel like this life is bullshit and doesn’t have a lot to offer me.

I wonder why I need to breathe to go through this bipolar out raged disease.

One minute happy, the next moody, hell all these damn emotions

You can never tell when my happiness is at a 100 stable degrees.

I can’t sleep; I talk like a fat Albert chic feeling like I can’t breathe.

I swear why I had to be a mother, why I had to have lives depend on me.

I just really want to end it all I tell you it’s totally too much for me.

I think one day I am going to actually meet my desire and truly pull the trigger.

I look like joy but on the inside I feel like a pile of flies clinging to shit.

You ask for me to speak what I feel, well this is part of my problems.

I have been a person walking the streets of life on a many of levels

And I am ready to go now. Been ready to go, but he somehow keeps

Me here to fucken torture me. Some one just find my immediate ones the perfect

Angel so I can make a decision that God want make. I can just slit my

           Throat and let the blood of I am free roam the lakes.

 

© Julia L. Clark Registration Number Txu 1 - 259- 764, All rights reserved

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Just Like Emotional Shit!

I' am truly, very truly in one of my closer breaking point
don't want this life contract deal i am so ready to go
and that is the truth!

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  • New-n-Improved
    September 12, 2008
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    This Is Very Hurtful To My Eyes!!

    I can't imagine you feeling like this. Damn, I wish there was something that I could do about these feelings. You are really something to me in my eyes and you are an amazing woman. Please take these words and let them touch your heart because without you I am nothing. You have made me what I am today.


    • theredcatjazzoflove gold member
      September 12, 2008
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      thanks hon yea getting it together i am in healing process i shall be good i am home for the moment Ike is tampering with my healing though but i am good until its passes and can go back take care


  • Enkeli
    September 7, 2008

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    This is a very emotional write... I've felt like this before, I'm bipolar myself... but don't give up =] Thank you for entering, and I hope you find better times.

    ♥
    Enkeli


  • Lil Atl 30319
    September 6, 2008

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    wow I am s so sorry baby I know times get buggin you know but you have to get a grip I love you want to talk to you soon Niree


  • moluv10
    September 5, 2008
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    This is a powerful expression here dear. Please don't throw in the towel yet because you have a lot of people that really care about you and want nothing but the best for you. you're a great person, a beautiful lady with a powerful voice and we need you.


  • Lonely Christina
    September 5, 2008

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    noooo! i loverz you things will get better, i promise cuz they always do. ur an amazing woman from wht i kno. keep writing and keep in touch
    xoxo- christina


  • hotchocolate gold member
    September 4, 2008
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    Think about the things that are good that has happened. There are more good things than bad but when bad times hit we seem to forget the good ones. I have tryed to do what your talking about long ago and I am so glad I didn't accomplish it. It would have been the biggest mistake. You know we are here, when you need to talk.

    Love ya much, Hotchocolate


  • PassionsPromise gold member
    September 4, 2008

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    Upon the wings of life you fly with me
    arms opened wide we fly forever it seems
    traveling back and forth, we become dizzy
    but together you and I, will reach our dreams.

    Kiss my lips now and hold on tight my dear
    for the promise is life is what we make it
    Shun the darkness and slap the fear,
    yes i so know your tired oof all this and the shit.

    Lets get busy and enjoy life my honey
    and say hell fucken yea. we are free and happy!

    Love you
    Passions


  • Ms Sexy silver member
    September 4, 2008

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    No your ass not you have too much accomplished to give up on everything. I do know that you have more ups than you do downs and just know this, you do have someone here (even if it's just the cyber world) that truly cares and adore you much, Keep your head up Ju it will get better with time


    • Mrs LadyEnthralling
      September 4, 2008
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      i know love but i m not happy living haven't been for years i want to go sexy and that is the honest truth want to go honey it may sound as a shocker to you but i want disguise being no liar i am miserable honey no one knows what it feels like being like this at all its hell_ Take Care

  • mcfreeman
    September 4, 2008
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    Not on our watch.

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