What does it mean to me?

Fall on me truth of heaven.
Fall on me truth unleavened,
Bread of life? What does it
Mean to me?

Fill me up with holy water,
This faithful man was made to order.
Where did all my independence go?

"Burn in me, oh fire of Jesus"
And all those other crowd pleasers
What does it mean?
Where does it all come from?

I've sung the songs, I've said the prayers.
I've read the Bible, or tried to anyway.
I've felt complete but now I feel empty.
I've suffered drought surrounded by spiritual plenty.
I've seen the 'truth';
Seen nothing change at all.

Am I the same save wiser and stronger?
I like to think I'll follow blindly no longer.
But who can say? I've been here before.