Hate

I'm sorry I guess I never told you
I really never wanted to show you
Who I really am, I mean
That person hates you
At least that's what I believe
I guess I like the idea
But I really hate the fact
I hate fucking everything
Except her
Whoever she is
I hope I meet her
But I really hate you
I'm sorry but I really do
I know how much you care
And it's sad how much I fucking don't
But I just don't
I cringe at the thought of you
I saw a picture of you last night
I wished it was glass so I could have shattered it in a beautifully violent fit of frustration
That's how much I hate you
You said I spent all the money for your food
I wondered why you thought I gave a shit
If you could just hate me as much as I've hated you....
Maybe then we could both be happy
Until then.....
I'll hate you so
I made a mistake in you
I hate myself
But mostly just you
I'll take all the blame for everything
That's just how little I care anymore
Every time I said I didn't want this
But couldn't bring myself to tell you this was you
I care less every day
I'm becoming the worst person I think I could have ever imagined
Maybe worse.....
All because you love me
God damnit!