Love Still Exists

I have been down that hurt and scared out of my wits
Two really bad marriages several love affairs which
always seem to crash and burn
I could not be what they  wanted me to be
Then I fell down midnight black tunnel living
in distrust, hurt, fear and shame
Some time we our own worst enemy in anger
we turn on ourselves
If only I could of down this or that better
it made me feel like I was not good enough ever
Friend keep babbling they found a perfect guy for me
He was not her type, she thought we were a good match
In earnest I told her have I not been though enough already?
Then she would set me up tell me to meet her guess what?
He was there I told him I was not interest or ever would be
Nor was he a guy who gave up easy he worked his way into
my heart slowly,then one day I feel in love
It sacred me out of my mind, I keep telling myself
in time he would hurt me again
Then I got so ill I could not care for myself so
he moved in to help me he was at my beck and call
He talked me into marring him with his warm blue eyes
dimples that could charm the socks right out of a person
Our marriage was not easy his son got hurt in a car accident and his ex
had her own problems they could only bury the ax into one another
When he wept for his son my heart broke for him
There times his daughter hurt him he never told her
He carried this all inside for fear  he could not handle the truth
Deep down I did not care about the sins of the past
Now he was a changed person he believe in me when others would not
When I was down he believe in me and gave me chances I did not have before
Family comes first not last in my book my family will vouch for this
My family sent him cards on special occasions and call him just to talk
in my  heart  some how I keep what family was left together
Nor could I judge him for I had made many mistakes in my life time
the experiences changed me forever
What truly hurt his daughter said that I did not know him
Well she was wrong we talked a great deal because I came
pretty close to death two times so I wanted to talk about events
that could happen in the future
On a regular day the call came then later I found out
he had died with out me saying good by
My heart broke our relationship had it good
times and it bad times I could not leave him like the rest
I knew he was like me hurt and not trusting he believed love
could win in the hardest of times
Hear the hardest truth I let past hurts blind me to his love
He did the best he could in his heart he carried past anger
that bleed out to me
He would say I married him for his money
I laughed we live in a one bedroom shack
For I had not marry for money all I wanted was him
He asked me what would I do if I had a million dollars to spend
My answer is start an agency to help the poor and protect there rights
When you are down, people just want to kick one down even more
We had five year from the time we meet married four and half years
it took twenty years to find love
Then it was gone quickly and sudden it left me as  half of a person
he was my other half
His love made me stronger he taught me when other would not take
the time to assist me in learning
My head injury from a younger age made me slow in some
areas of my life he made me keep working out them
Now my life has improved due to his dedication
Life is too short not to take chances on love for one does
not know where they will find it or how it will change them for the better
The path of true love dose not come easy if it did would we
really appreciate the other person as much?