Trusting Once Again

Your eyes so sincere
Your voice so soft
Your hands so warm
I thought I could trust you
Although I knew I probably shouldn’t
Deep down I knew you were only using me
Just like you had done so many times before
Or so it was rumored
But I trusted that I was right to think you were a better person then everyone said
But I believed myself
I trusted myself when I said you couldn’t do anything like that to me
I was your best friend’s little sister
I would do anything for you I would give anything for you
But yet you shoved your way into my heart
It seemed you entered with a painful dagger in hand
At first it was a piercing happiness
Until you started twisting it around
Then the pain grew and the realization of what you did pounded in my chest
You dropped me like I was nobody
You crushed me into the deepest black hole
I thought as I stared up from the cracks in the rocks above me
At the agonizingly bright moon and the twinkling still stars
I thought I was done for, forever, for good
A shooting star passed overhead one day
I wished for you to love me
But instead I finally patched myself roughly together
I felt as fragile as a porcelain doll
Holding my arms around me I pushed on through the days
Suddenly a new face found his way into my life
I had trusted you so deeply I could give no new trust to the one who really cared
I tried my hardest
It took me the longest time
But then I realized that not everybody can be as heartless as you
Slowly he pushed and prodded into my deepest secrets
He found out about everything it seemed almost
So I escaped my prison
And I let it all out
And this new boy comforted me throughout the nights to come