I must say theres not a day that goes by when I don't think of you.
When I don't lay my head down and cry thinking of you.
Everyday I have been blessed to have had the chance to adjust.
Yet God wont allow me to forget about this mess.
How could you? How could you do such horrible things?
When I was your favorite, but caused you such pains.
I want to remember how to forget.
When you yelled at me and called me hurtful names.
Truly you put me to shame.
Yet somehow I will manage to forget.
All of these memories coming back.
I just visited mommy and she didn't have to much to say.
She could remember the hurtful ways.
Now you lay in heaven watching down.
Do you regret all the things that you did?
The way you mistreated, misjudged, and asked us to forgive!
Now I am older a nineteen year old woman.
Who every now and again makes big mistakes.
But don't be mistaken I love this life that you've given me to live.
But the one thing that I truly hate and disappreciate are these memories.
Author notes
This was written in memory of my life as a child, spent with my mother and father.
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This is so very sad and I wish this was not your experience as a child. Too many carry so much pain because of adults who just don't do their job right. You are the person you are because of your experiences, and you are learning and growing from them. You have a lot to look forward to in your life. Keep focused on that, and keep looking inside and dealing with the pain. It never goes away, but it does get better, I promise.
Blessings dear one, Mom
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