im not in control

what would you do if you were me
would you pretend like nothings wrong and everything is fine and life is great
or would you be honest and know that you feel lost and condemed tp feel angry
angry at everything and nothing is how you'd hoped.
i was supost to be a fucking Marine, but God had other plans
Im mad at him. mad cuz my dads gone and my dogs gone.
Its not fair, I dont know what to do
I kinda want to go to college
but i dont think i can
why cant i do anything right
i need to see the dr. my legs still hurt and my feet to
but im scared i dont wanna be told somethings seriously wrong
i cant keep the things that bother me in anymore.
i feel empty now.
i have to sleep now.
i hope tommorw is a better day