never

He sees right through me, and i dont know how to live with it, dont know how to live.... without.
The trembling disentery feeling of the powerful dawn, seeping escaping from one life to another
How to live.. how to .. Live.....

HOW TO LIVE with everything i ever wished for in one soul
one... heart...

one
mind

sleeping in a bed not far from mine.
A sleeping angel laying there silently with my hand caressing his face,
my body pressed closer than it should have been.
Stealing his heat, sharing my warmth with millions of cells that react
to my body
being so close to his.
One eternity of peace.

I never opened up so far to anyone,
because they all turn and spit acid into your face.
Fear
For his self,
instead of mine.


What is this sickenly intoxicating feeling in the pit of my stomache?
He moves and my heart stops pumping blood for a second.

"How long was i out"
he mumbles,

He looks up at me and his eyes catch mine.
He smiles, and whispers

"Good morning"
I point out that its the middle of the day.
he rolls his eyes and laughs.
I grin at his childish move, and he grins back.

I sit up and begin to move myself from his warmth.
His arms wrap around my waist,
he burries his face into my back.
"dont leave me"
he whines.
I turn so that he has no choice but to be buried into my stomache.
and run my fingers through his hair.
I tilt his chin up and kiss his forhead.

and whisper....


"Never"