I never thought...

I never thought,
I’d be this bad.
I never thought,
Those last day’s were the only thing I’d think about now.
I never thought,
You meant so much.
I never wanted to believe,
Hat you meant more to me than him.
I never wanted to believe,
You were the one,
I never wanted to believe,
What I did.
I never wanted,
It to end.
I never wanted,
To leave.
I never wanted,
This.
You were mine.
I fell for you,
At the lake,
The day’s spent,
Swimming,
Driving,
Going for walks,
Seadoo’s,
Sauna’s.
You meant everything to me that month.
We did nothing,
And everything.
We drank,
We sang,
We were.
The nights were spent,
Playing cards,
Watching movies,
And cuddling,
Watching the stars.
Making love.
It never should have ended.
I never wanted it to end.
There were no worries,
Nothing.
We didn’t think about the day we left,
We didn’t worry about the time,
We didn’t consider the day.
You were my secret.
My own little secret.
And I loved it,
I loved you.
But you flew back,
I drove back.
Two separate sides of the world,
A Six hour time difference,
Why?
I never thought,
It’d end like this,
I never thought,
I loved you,
I never thought,
You’d be all I think about.
I never thought.