i have died inside
i have killed myself
i just had to cut my wrists
to make me want to live again...
my heart cant ache
i am dead and i cant reverse it
why did i have to let Satan win again
i would ask for forgivness but i cant
my friends are at my Funeral now
i cant comfort them and tell them i am here
i have to watch as all of them cry
Oh God i wish i could cry
they are putting me in the ground now
and saying one last prayer
but then i see my mom
she is not crying
my mom is on her knees saying thank you
thank you to God for putting me out of misery
she doesnt know that i am suck between two worlds
how could i do this to her?
i walk Ghost-like over to her
and put my hand on her shoulder
she suddenly looks up and looks straight at me
but sees right through me...
now everyone is gone
i am standing in the pouring rain
and wishing i could feel it
Oh God i wish i could feel it
i walk back to my old home
and stand in the middle of my old room
my parents walk in and take away all my stuff
they took it away forever
seeing back noe, i see that i was loved
loved by my friends and my family
i was loved so much and didnt realize it
and now it is all over....
i wish i didnt do this to them.
Author notes
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A contest entry
- Awesomely Sad Poems by Toxic Stardust.
475 points, ended September 1, 2008, 15 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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Comments
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It's beautiful, so much emotion expressed in this. I can really relate. Good luck with your inner demons! Stay strong
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thank you for the comment!!! and thank you for the luck!
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You're welcome!
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Burn in hell
no sadlly i dont want you too lol
but why do you so often comit suicide
i feel worse every time i see you've died
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dont you ever say that to me again cory.... i am not going to burn in hell.... God you are so crazy!!!!
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no no lol i dont want you too
lol i dont want you too but if you do ill watch lol but why do you do this?
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Awesome
Extreamly sad, but otherwise a great poem. Keep it up Angel. ~Isaac Dragonfire~
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Jesus
You make it so vivid! The thing is, I almost felt like it was me talking (as I have had problems like this recently but not anymore).
Well done!!!
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molly
is there something i can do to help you? or make you happy? -
molly?
yep, I knew it. This is actually pretty good. You seriously need to read the one poem "Perfect!". I like this. Good Luck!
Much Love and Keep Writing,
~Alicia Lynn
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This poems is amazing. I was actually crying by the time I finished reading this. Your writing is beautiful hun.
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I really like it! i don't normally like the nonrhymy poems but this is great!
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aww
aww! This is so sad..I really liked it but dont you die! Yesh your friends love you and probably your family too..nice poem girl..keep up the good work!
i love you!
Love eternally,
In Christ,
~Kayla~
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you do know that when i was talking about my mom and family that i was talking about you, kristen and mom right? lol
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