This feels as if my heart is tearing
Filling up with skulls and bones
My head is full of tears
And I can't bare to think
At night I dream of you
I sleep between the well wishing conversations
There is a pulling of my stomach
Every time I heave
The air escapes my lungs
As I howl again
I feel so unspeakably awful
It's a wonder I'm not dead too
I don't think I've touched the ground
I wish I was with you
I do believe you're better now
After the sleepless drives and pills killed you
Author notes
I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is to lose a parent. My step-father (who raised me) died in February of 2007.
This is based on what grief felt like for me, so I don't expect it to be the same for you. All I hope is that you can relate to it.
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- Goodbye daddy, hope to see you in heaven by Meroza.
4500 points, ended September 11, 2008, 19 entries
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Comments
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It is a lot like you felt, feeling trapped in every room I am in, feeling every breath I take is not enough, the unbearable pain in my heart.
But I disagree on one point of your poem;
"After the sleepless drives and pills killed you"
My mother is a pill addict but my step dad never abused pills so I reacded stronger on this then others may have.
None the less, thank you so much for taking the time to enter my contest, it is deeply apriciated.

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Thank you for your comment. I should have explained the last line. See, my father drove for 27 hours, then took a unknown number of sleeping pills, and had a heart attack in his sleep. I didn't mean your father, and I'm sorry you took that the wrong way.
I hope you're doing ok.
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Thank you for explaining that bit, and I am sorry to heart about that. I never take any kinds of pills or medicine except those I need to survive, I am against drugs and if you feel pain it is because your body is telling you that something is wrong and you should treath it.
I am doing as fine as you can, the day's are passing by slowly but its good to be home with the family.
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