What’s one more mark?
What’s one more line?
It makes no difference
This body is mine
Mine to mutilate if I want
Mine to cover in scars
It’s my choice and mine alone
It will never be ours
Why should I hide
What makes me, me
Hide who I am and what I do?
I never said you had to agree
Yet no ones knows
I’ve told not a soul
What I do when life get to much
When I lose control
I know it’s wrong
It will never be right
But it gives me relief
If only for the night
This is my outlet
This is my escape
It makes me feel better
What’s one little scrape?
It helps me make it through the day
With a smile plastered on my face
That fools every one
So I’m not out of place
I give you no reason to suspect
That I'm doing something wrong
Yet you don’t trust me
And it’s gone on for way to long
The more you accuse and the less you trust
The more that little blade
Will slice the skin
Where other scars begin to fade
Author notes
explaining my secret..i cut about 6 months ago beucase i was going through some really hard times with my friend and its a long stroy im not going to share. eventually every one found out i was cutting and i swore to every one i would stop and stop for good, but i lied and just became more discrete about it. my mom suspects that im doing it still and i assure her im not. but its not her desicion what i do. and the more she suspects that im doing it the more i do do it beucase it kinda.. idk... her not trusting me shows that she doesnt think i have the strength to stop which makes me really think i dont have the strength to stop. that last part makes no sense..
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- Your deepest darkest secret... by AutumnsFlame.
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A very impacting (if that's a word) write. I'm sure most of us have been were you are hiding something from your closest with the intentions of protecting them from yourself (my experience) but just know that they have your interests in mind and don't anything happening to you.
It's very emotional, just try not to get ahead of your self. Someone always gets hurt in the end, and it wont always be you.
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I know how this goes, i've been cutting for 7 years. I always thought i could quit, which now i kinda have, but at the same time i still dont deal with things in a "healthy" manor. And every once in awhile i go back to cutting, it seems to be my best outlet. But i hope your doing better with it, it really sucks to know that you're letting people down. anyway Thank you for entering my contest and i wish you the best of luck!!! keep up the great work, and i hope all goes well for you.
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Well... this was definitely the best one I've read today.
And there have been quite a few good ones today. This one made me teary eyed, bc every word of it was true for me as well as you. It really spoke to me and im not just saying this. I cant even describe in words how it made me feel... maybe not so alone, but wow... amazing -
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thank you so much. your comment ment alot. glad you could relate. it makes me feel less like an out cast :/
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If you don't want harsh criticism, you entered the wrong contest. If you read the rules, you should know that I am a harsh judge.
I thought your poem was okay... not completely bad. Why would you write those last lines if they don't make sense? That kind of turned me off to this poem. If you are going to write something, make it have meaning. I thought you had good rhyme, and I can see talent somewhere in there, but this seemed really cliche to me. I think you could have used more imagery. Thank you for entering my contest. -
great write
lifes hard, just remember that sometimes its a good idea to have at least one friend know that you cut. they might be able to help. or its just nice to have a shoulder to cry on every now and then.
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i like the last stanza because it shows why you still feel the need to cut and the line "with a smile plastered on my face", awshum flow 2, i understand how you feel, this really isn't helping fr me to say but if anyone found out that i cut i believe i'd cut more,
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