I stare at blank walls,
Searching for what I lost in your eyes,
I stare at great cost,
Regretting the past years of my life,
I’ve lost my little secret,
And my smile has faded,
As much as I try not to,
I fear I’ve become quite jaded,
I dread closing my eyes,
Because I still feel your embrace,
And as the tears flood my mind,
I still don’t know how here is where we made it,
The sweet lips that spoke words of trust and love,
Have now begun to cut like a knife,
And I avoid looking at your eyes,
Because they leak sarcasm, indifference, causing much strife,
I’m in a constant state of nausea,
And my mind seems to be so rank,
I’m in a world that is not mine,
Because the one we dreamt you threw away,
I can’t seem to come to grips,
With the fact that you’re pushing me away,
And as much as I want to fight,
Here I can not stay,
I’ve tried to make a stamp on your heart,
And convince this is where I need to be,
But according to you, I’m no longer number one,
I’ve just become a contingency,
With every smirk of your mouth,
And cut of your twisted words,
I seem to become more incomplete,
This hole that you dig,
Continues to get more deep,
As much as I would like to close this pain,
I suppose I’ll just have to give into defeat,
But until I can cope,
I’ll draw poetic lines on the wall that sits before me,
Insomniac over whelming,
I wish I could sleep,
But because of you,
I’m now afraid to dream…
Author notes
My fiance of 2 years decided to break up with me two months before our wedding... I've been trying to find a way to describe how i've been feeling and this was a close as I got.
This was a pre-write but when I saw the Foolish Games was one of the songs and the quote that you used was "Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart", I knew this poem would fit. I practically said the same thing in the actual poem itself. Oh and 
A contest entry
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Comments
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Firstly, I offer my sympathies.. nobody deserves that sort of injustice to fall upon them.
Now, I can't say that I can relate to the theme of the poem, but I can very much relate to the insomniac aspect, which you described very cleverly.
"But until I can cope,
I’ll draw poetic lines on the wall that sits before me,
Insomniac over whelming,
I wish I could sleep,
But because of you,
I’m now afraid to dream… "
-- those lines.. wow! Brilliant!
I loved those lines.
Also, the bitter irony of the 'dreamt world thrown away' was very creative, I liked that.
The one line I do have a problem with is..
"I still don’t know how here is where we made it,"
-- It might just be me, but it seems kind of awkward.. perhaps it is too long on maybe it's the alliteration of the h's.. I personally think it would work better as..
"I still don’t know how we made it,"
But, it's your poem, so I would certainly not ask you to change anything =)
Anyway, I'm starting to ramble now.. (which is a sign that I like it ) so I'll just sum up by saying that this was a very moving and creative poem that I thoroughly enjoyed reading.
Thank you for entering and best of luck
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