Facade

This facade is coming down in pieces
i yearn to be broken over and over
my emotions are hard to contain
i want to scream and hurt you like you hurt me

this facade has lasted me for years
but is so suddenly crumbing in places
where it was so strong
i hate myself for missing you

im clawing at my own skin
there is nothing to help me stop
help me help me i whisper
no one answers in the middle of the night

weaknesses i never show
are wide open
help me, please
the pills leave scratch marks down my throat

dullness silver shimmer
pushed hard against my skin
it doesnt offer anything
i need the release of your touch

my facade is breaking
you can finally see the true me
so break me i can handle it
i can handle anything you can throw at me