Forgotten

Where did it go?
White trees bathed in purity
Laughter like chimes on the wind
Soft and ceaseless over me
With each other our hearts soared

Where did I go?
One who stood so strongly
Understanding the world beyond me
Within me
And held in quiet composure
Silent reproach now for what I have lost
What I have become
Monster

Her whispers still in my head
A gaping hole in my heart
My spirit is what holds me up
Survival becomes a game
Behind the eyes of the one who has lost everything
I have been searching for so long
Something that can kill me..

It is a silent pain
And it is a quiet thing
So old it still hurts in the night
And pushes away everything else
Always a fight
Every breath…

White trees and glass mountains
White waters and soft blue stones
Light everywhere
My life, my love, my home

Here I stand
In darkness
Death in each hand
Mask over the pain I’ve wrought and suffered
Falling apart, pieces tearing at each other
Cluttered
As decay wisps away from me

You would not know me my love
If your eyes behold me now
And I have become so cold
I cannot feel you anymore
Cannot feel your warmth

You come to me
As a dark haired woman
And I cannot feel you touching me
This numbness time's long token
I have forgotten how to love