Train Wreck

A train wreck of words
Is all I'm capable of lately
Sometimes when it hurts inside
I say things I've been holding in
They blurt out like a train on a broken bridge
The mess it creates no one understands
Words are jumbled and spilled upon the floor
Meanings are misconstrued and hearts are broken
Like so many limbs, it's nearly impossible to fix

One after another the cars fly off the cliff
Like the flow of words, they can't be stopped
Each lands with a crash and hurts those nearest
Picking up the pieces is difficult
There's so many and scattered so far
Over time with a lot of patience
The area is cleared of the disaster
Still the scars remain in the ground
Pieces of metal still stick in the wounds

Words can not express the horror I feel
At watching the train wreck from a distance
After being involved in one with one so dear
Over and over, you try to see what could have been done
To prevent such a loss, but the tracks are laid
And the switch too far back
I can only hope to survive, scared and wounded
But still with you by my side helping me to my feet
I think I can survive anything.

Please forgive my hurting words
They were not truly meant for you
I simply did not pull the break on time
If you see the warning signs please signal me
And next time I will not start the train
On that journey if I can see far enough ahead
Keep this train on safe tracks
And she'll never derail.