It had to be around four years ago
when you permanently staggered into my breath
penetrating my oxygen with your ever-so flattering falsity.
It was an attraction we both knew was too grim
but you forced my heart into your untrusted hands anyway;
your eyes pleading for me to ask you to stay.
I was never inclined to walk on thin water
to accomplish my commission to acquire you as mine .
You'd light up my day with one of your crooked smiles
but misleading doubts were constructing one by one
piecing my tattered sobriety back together
[you didn't agree
with how I was surpassing you now;
victoriously beating you at your own crooked game]
My eyelids had become far too heavy
I could feel your lean fingers
moving up & down my quavering spine
leaving their effective mark on my severely pounding heart
enclosed behind a fragile bit of glass
so you could peer right through; & smash it all so easily.
You were blinding my once 20/20 vision
used to write letters painted in tears
crumbled up in my garbage
on how you could give a shit less.
You pursued me to believe you were different
just to be led into your arms .
Your voice gave me uncontrollable goosebumps
damaging my nerve system
so you could take advantage of my numerous insecurities
& use them in your favour.
I slyly watched you stand in my doorway, hands in pocket
deciding on whether or not
you've penned enough damage on my explorable soul
or told me enough lies to fulfill my once unattainable dreams
that you seemed to make
attainable .
& with a careening sigh
I recall you breathing
'I'll see you around '
and you aimlessly hobbled out the front door
into the cold & breathtaking air
drove away in your beat-up olive green jeep
[& I haven't heard from you since]
♥
Adding your comment:
great job i love this poem
