If I could rewrite the day we met
I’d change every moment
Taking with me the knowledge
Of the forever you promised me
I would look you in the eyes
And walk away from you like you were nothing
Just the same way as you are doing to me now
I never would have let you break down the barriers
That I had worked so hard to build
Taking with you my most important commodity
And destroying everything that was left
I would rather be buried,
six feet below the solid ground
you stand on today, then live the life
you have left me with
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“I started out with nothing, and I have most of it left”
I REGRET ever having met you....
I once believed, that the butterfly was so beautiful, that nothing could destroy or hurt it.. but I have learned that even the beauty of the butterfly does not escape the reality of death. Even someone you trusted to always be there for you, will leave you behind. Love means nothing. People fall in and out of love so easily, how could it ever really stand for something? I wish I was one of those people. How do you do it? I need to know. I need someone to release my heart from the pain it endures everyday.... When I needed your love the most, you abandoned me. You promised to be here for me.. "always by your side" ... but you found someone to fill the place I once belonged. I'm no longer needed in your life... or my own.
My love for you never faultered. I would have loved you forever had you let me. I would have married you, taken care of you... I would have tried to be worthy of you... but reality is.. I never was.
"When I learn from my mistakes, I give them meaning. When I give my mistakes meaning, I can begin to forgive myself. I will not use my mistakes as excuses to give up on me. My mistakes are NOT me. I take responsibility for creating my own life story, through the choices I have made; TO BLAME OTHERS, IS TO GIVE MY PERSONAL POWER AWAY" I'm not giving my personal power away and I am not taking responsibility for yours.
I have made mistakes.. and I own up to every last one of them. Can you say the same?
In a list
Don't I deserve more than this...... life?
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Everything in life comes with a price. The greater the happiness, the greater is the pain we must endure when it ends.
Love is one of the greatest emotions we can enjoy, but so often that too will end in extreme pain. For the more it has been enjoyed, the more it had to offer, then the more extreme is the agony and desolation we feel at its ending.
All this you have implied in your opening Stanza and then gone on the elaborate in the following stanzas.
I can share your pain, for I feel I can understand how you feel. For having to endure it, I offer my sympathy as well as my experience, for I feel sure that you are strong enough not only to survive this, but to grow and move forward to a true and fulfilling happiness. -
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thank you!!!
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wonderful poem
This is beautiful, i can really relate to this poem. I have two more poems that are over heartache. I loved him and he just decided to take it upon himself to rip my heart out by cheating on me with another girl in my house, when i was in the next room asleep. This is a wonderful poem, and filled with emotions. I cannot really pick which part is my favorite, because in all honesty i love it all. very good job on this write.
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I am sorry you ever had to feel that pain.... but obviously he was not a good force in your life and it took a hurtful event for you to see it... be glad that he showed his true colors before you were bonded for life (such as married or with children).
Pain is what allows us to know happiness... I wouldnt change anything in my life. I learn from my mistakes and try to move forward. I am still growing as a person and sometimes its hard to let go.. that is a reason I write... to let go of some of the pain.
Criss
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