take what you want

here I sit sickened to the bone
as the words of a world I can't break free of
come crashing down around me and the blindness
and forgiving nature bearing deep within
fire eating away the flesh of the phoenix
"Take what you like." written in my blood
across the stretch of a wall with nothing but lies
as the hatred building grows into a dying twisted tree
blackened by the never ending fire, dripping mortal blood
and the carved initials of those claiming homage beneath the branches
my dead, peeling branches with nothing left to give
yet to try and drink the blood that has run dry
where to stand when all the world falls out from under
this is the very place I know and didn't
where oh where can I still for a soft, brief moment of peace
weary beneath the stars and the night sky I feel nothing
but the death of my heart...
love dying away...
I reach up to claim it as my own and yet between thin digits it slips
tears that sting, tasting of lover's sweat
I am nothing more than a dying carcass in a world full of drugged individuals
believing they own this world for their own
I want nothing but the love I used to know
and yet someone how it is no longer and is
take what you want from me
you will do it anyway...