Hate me?

You left me in the dust
no crying, no broken hearts to be seen
standing here in a daze
feeling so unclean

i want you to be here
i want to hear your voice
wish i hadn't agreed to this
i feel i had no choice

voices in my head nonstop
screaming out your name
i talk to my friends
but it's not the same

i want to know you love me
that i'm not just sex
i wish that i could feel like that
but maybe this is best

you might just find a lover
who can take the thought of love
who won't shove away your advances
like cupid's arrow from above

maybe she'll be pretty
and not reject the thought
of being hot and sexy
and can be easily bought

maybe a dinner or two
and you'll be down her pants
then it won't be long
before it advances

she'll have the baby
i was meant to have
and i'll be all alone
broken into halves

You'll say your sorry
that you have to go
to be with your baby
that i'll never know

I'll grasp my stomach
wailing my despair
and you'll walk away from me
you'll no longer care

These tears will flood the world
a never ending flow
and how good i could be
you would never know

i try so hard to be happy
to be with you in bliss
but now i know if i were gone
I wouldn't even be missed...