im sick of this
all i ever seem to do is pretend
i pretend i'm happy
i pretend i care
i even pretend that i wanna be there
but its just so hard living a lie
i cant keep pretending
cause my life is ending
all i want to do is die
but i'm living
living a lie
pretending to care
pretending i'm happy
when i'm not
i'm hating every minute
but the fake smile on my face
it's telling you i'm fine
that its all ok
when i'm ready to shout out
& say my life sucks
i hate it
& i'm not gonna pretend anymore
but i cant say those words
cause i'd rather die
then admit it's true
& that's why i pretend
but don't worry
i never pretended to love you
because that's the only thing
in this fucked up life that is true
Author notes
a poem i wrote roughly a year ago that i decided to add.
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Awww...honey. I know exactly what you mean. I live each day suffering from mental and physical health problems that I basically go around and pretend that everything is okay. I feel like I need a big change. And I just don't know where to begin. So I go on pretending when all in all, I'm scared, lonely, and going out of my mind. Just remember there are people that love and care about you.
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Pretending is not the best course for making one's way through life.
Yes, it becomes tiresome and anyway, it's obvious to others when a person is making something up. The truth is of great value and it is possible to admit past lies and tell the truth. 
One may find forgiveness and understanding. 
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