Silence Within the Night

No breeze tonight and I hear not even a cricket, for the silence is so pure it sounds as if the night just broke in half. Maybe it was not the night that broke? But something did for sure as I know I just saw some stars fall from the heavens, it had to be stars because I caught a shimmering in the corner of my eyes and felt the early morning dew fall upon my checks.
I wasn’t doing anything at all when it happened, just staring into the destiny that awaits me. Pondering the thoughts that crosses my mind when there is nothing left to say. Thinking of the silence between an unheard song and the melody it plays in the silence when lovers don’t have to tell each other what they are thinking.
The silence within the night is again so pure that I hear the breaking of even the thoughts that captured me into this silent phase of life I am going through. When I twitch, I have noticed I twitch alone and the aching of my muscles are but my own as I stumble around at times, hoping there is someone who will catch me should I fall.
Deep in the silence my mind will jump as my body goes numb and tingles in places unheard of as I try to find my arms and sometimes my legs. There are times when I am not sure of who I am or even if I have ever grown up, as I act quite childish when I am silent; even still some of these silent times are fun.
This silence within the night is not good to share alone but here I sit feeling pity for myself as I try to defy natures calling. Should I had known the silence that nature was giving me, never would I had answered and said yes “I will be the one who stands in silence just to see a smile on the faces of those who are innocent of life.”
Where is the justice I cry out for? “Oh yeah” it is too silent to hear and what we can’t hear we cant always see. But look at me as I do and you will see that sometimes silence is not a golden treat but rather a curse we choose for ourselves by not being selfish and choosing to live this life of silence that is within the night.
I act as though this silence does not bother me, but I am sure if one knew me well they would be able to tell I am appalled to this silence within the night. I want to hear the crickets instead of the night and wish not to feel the morning dew upon my checks. I love to hear the melodies of unheard songs as I have one of myself I wish to share.
Though how can I share the joy I have if I am left in this silence? There is a noise somewhere that is calling unto me and trying to pull me out of this. And I will do what I must do, for I am who I am and have no time to sit around hearing nothing when there is a whole brand new world awaiting me outside of this silence that is within the night.