When I see you
I close my eyes
It is so hard to face what is true
But I must own up to my lies
On a fateful night
You asked what we'd be like ten years from now
Against my better judgement I had to fight
As I told you "just like today is how"
Yet I can not help but feel
Myself cringe at your smile
'Cause what i tell you is no longer real
It hasn't been for a while
I swore I'd love you always
Now it tears me apart
through cold lonly days
ripping away my heart
It's eating me inside
Burning to get out
The truth I can not hide
It's you i could do without
But I guess I'd go to Hell and back
before hurting you like you hurt me
You know it's that strength that I lack
To just break free like i need to be
Author notes
This is a verry personal write for me, you see because there is this peson that i liked, you know, like romantically, and it turned out that they liked me back. and we kept this bond for over a year, and they went through, and are still struggling with annorexia and bullimia, and that's why it's so hard for me to leave them, because i don't want to make the problem worse because they have come to depend on me... so basically i'm venting my emotions here, so if you want to critisize my writing fine, but please don't critisize the emotions...
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this is very good. I love when you write about personal things going on in your life because you show such emotions and it always ends up being a great write, like this one!
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Maybe you could help this person to connect with other supportive people before you split.
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I think that even though you are making a very difficult choice that it's important for you to do the right thing. Which you are. I have stood where you stand now, with someone whom I liked, but I lost myself through it, and had to find myself again, and leaving him was really my best option.
I understand it is hard to leave someone who you care about so much, but hopefully this will be what will help them get over the anorexia and bulimia.
head high and this will work out.
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In poems we can never cretisize emotions that's cause they are the writers own personal expirence. It's true that when we promise we ought to hold on to it but sometimes promises are best be broken that continuing to hurt us.
It's a nice poem, I can relate to it myself and I hope you find the strength in you to let go soon of what is hurting you.
Best wishes!
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Heavens Sake!
No one in their right mind could criticize the emotion felt here! It is difficult to create a monster! Sometime we inadvertantly do this without knowing we are! Which is better? To be stabbed in the heart and have soomeone turn the knife round and round or to be cut quickly? Which involves less pain? Hard words for you to hear maybe, but you need to hear them! When you arrive at a crossroads and you either have to live a lie or tell the truth, the truth will always set you free! It may hurt you to do it, but in the end you'll be glad you did? You also might want to consider the fact that you aren't helping your friend by being their crutch! You love your friend by helping them to stand on their own two feet! Just some advise from one who has been there! Best regards!
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