I'll ease your pain & rock your soul,
she was as two faced as the gemini sun
& he was as twisted as an awakened ghoul.
They shattered us whole leaving us vulnerable--
he touched me in ways I could never allow
& she didn't show you any love at all.
His words were blank, but I had to believe them
or I'd've broken into a thousand pieces.
She pushed you away in every single way,
but you dared not to show you wanted it
I do care for you--I know my reputation,
I know all that I've done is so sordid and wrong;
I suppose I'm like my ex James, I'm searching for someone,
anyone who will show me that they want me not someone else.
Do you miss me sometimes--I hope you do,
I can't believe the last year has happened to me,
it's like a blur and I'm wanting it to fade on through.
He never loved me did he, like my friend Kieran,
I need the closure before I shatterdeepinside.
I don't know what he wanted, but he was so good--
I could've never been such a good player at the game,
I'd've given up on the emotional and sexual abuse straight away.
I wish he would burn in hell & die;
you know what a caring person I usually am,
it takes a lot for me to wish someone to fry.
Talking of Fry, she broke you, she was always cruel
I just never wanted to say it to you, you loved her--
I don't know why some people are so cruel.
But just know no matter what happens is you've got me--
& I'm hoping that I've got you?
I understand if not, who'd want to love someone like me,
with the broken dreams & shattered memories,
too afraid to admit what her childhood brought her
& too frightened to be alone without romance.
I'll never be truly loved, but I took a chance,
maybe I'm not all that cowardly after all?
All I can say is I love him & I care for you--
I'm here for both of you, I die before you both,
maybe he dies before you, as you are pure.
I love your unbiased behaviours, you're so sincere,
I just wish that you wouldn't fear.
I'll always be here to tell you that he deserves to burn--
& trust me he will, the devil owes me some favours.
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