It's her again

This time I'm back.
I'm going to tell her tonight.
My emotions are in a fight.
That smile from across the table.
It's so sweet like maple.
That glint in your eye.
That cute little sigh.
I can't tell you but why?
Might it be because you may hate me now?
You'd rush off in a fit throwing a cow?
I don't know how I'll tell you.
But i feel that i need to.
If i see I'm soaring.
Happy like a bird.
If I miss you I'm down pouring.
Falling so absurd.
This isn't how i want it.
But that's how it is.
You've been single for so long.
But that's how it is.
And now I think I'll separate.
In this wave of friends.
I hope that our friendship.
Just never ends.
And if it does I'll miss you.
And it's because i couldn't say.
"Will you go out with me?"
No, today is not the day.