best friend

He's an amazing best friend, he's there for me in my time of need and every night for hours on end until one of us falls asleep. There's only one thing he doesn't know and at the moment it's the biggest hurt I have but because we know each other so well he knows somethings not right and as much as he begs for me to tell him whats going on I could never tell him what burdening me so. That burden being that I love him more than a best friend and it kills me as I sit every night and listen to him talk about how much he loves her and how perfect they are together as I cry in silence and my heavy, lonely heart falls into single pieces of ash disintegrating into the dirt, but in the end its worth hearing his calming voice before I go into a deep sleep and dream of us being as one.