Conflicting Emotions

I love you so much
And yet you hurt me so deeply
You don’t just hurt my feelings
It’s not just scratching the surface
It reaches my core and sears my soul
Yet I still love you
I know that because you make me feel so conflicted
Sometimes I wish I could rid you from my life
But thinking of my life without you in it makes me physically ill
The only thing that makes me feel better is thinking of being in your arms again
If you could only see the pain in my eyes that I feel deep inside
You’d want to make it better
But you’ll never see it because you’re never here