Falling falling fallen
Every word you speak
The blame and the betrayal
My God, the lies
The gnawing agony
I am knocked backward
Falling falling fallen
You said you would catch me
Or at least be a soft place
For me to land
But I sit in this pit of despair
Breathless and beaten
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Yeek, this feels like you are being beaten with that first line, and the subsequent 'bs' in the words thereafter, it's very visceral.
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so very sad. i like just how you expressed it too, keep your head up.
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Whew! That is heavy... and so very tragic. Over and over and over and over, I have felt this setting up only to be beaten down again in my life. The hope and the deception; the belief and the betrayal. It is very sad that when we were young, we had no defense. As adults we do! We can stand up and say "no more!" We can draw the boundaries and even prosecute if this what we want to do. We now have the power and the choice is ours.
Also, to move on with our lives. Sure, it is hard and everything gets triggered oh, so much. I have not given up that there is possibility for healing of such a wounding. It's a slow, agonizing process; and only we can do it for ourselves. Others can guide and support us; but ultimately, it is up to us - with the help of God.
I so relate to the "Falling falling fallen"... but you know what - it will not keep us down! -
Oh, hon. I so hear you. You are expressing it well here. It is good to write about things...let it out. Your imagery is so powerful.
That last stanza, especially hits me...the contrast between being a promised soft place to land...and your ending up in a pit of despair. I am so saddened for you. *tears*
Remember that you are only as beaten as you allow yourself to be.
You are my daughter/friend/sister. You always will be.
sending you tons of safe love and gentle hugs,
Abigail
Keep writing, hon. Keep writing.
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Deception
I know the feeling--like right now--well written.
You said it all and very well.
bw
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