goodbye my disgrace

my heart is beating,
but I feel so cold.
Lost in the world,
with bruises so old.
your afraid of me,
and it shows in your face.
kick me out of your life,
you don't want me to stay.
Tell me your lies,
again and again.
Promise me life,
call me your friend.
My hands are shaking,
and my lips are blue.
this is what happens,
when I think about you.
You hurt me,used me,
left me behind.
left me broken,
you left with my mind.
your silence burns,
like an open flame.
you think i am worthless,
that this was a game.
my body goes numb,
and i give up the fight.
i'll promise you nothing,
this will all end tonight.
don't tell me you love me,
don't lie threw your teeth.
right now i'm showing,
whats been burning beneeth.
my anger,my pain,
my saddness and hope.
has left me broken,
with no way to cope.
and you know you did this,
when you look in my eyes.
so spare me the sappy,
stupid little lies.
I close my eyes,
and i'll see your face.
so long to this life,
goodbye my disgrace