Nothing short of my heart and yours

that first day
I wonder
if I could go back and tell myself who you'd become to me

would I believe myself?
would I believe that kid I saw and didn't think that much of at the time would mean so much?

I came in and out of enlightenment
it was a game of cat and mouse with my mind
one minute I thought I had it, that I admitted it
the next I was playing repression
slipped away
and yet letting my guard down
at times things were so obvious
but to someone so oblivious
things could've been in another language for all it mattered

despite the games,
despite the lies I told myself
once I realized, I really realized
things weren't just some stupid idea in the back of my mind
real and in my world
ready to be lived

who knew?
everyone I guess
since they always asked what we had going on between us


at first you were just someone I never thought for one second...
I'm glad I didn't take that for granted
I'm lucky I didn't
because now I have you
such an all around good person
to love
and have
and hold
maybe I'll be even more lucky and get you for a super long amount of time (try forever?)