what use to be...

when i would look in the mirror i'd see,
a lil' girl who's scared.
she fears the world...
and blames everyone for wats be done.
she's been through a lot.
but wat nobody knew was that she's in pain.

from the age 3 to the age 14,
she's been abused by both of her step parents,
neglected by her very own father,
and with a mother devorced 3 times.
no wonder she hurts inside.

afraid of wat shes become,
and what she's still becomin'.
goin' through life with a fake smile,
and a broken heart.
not knowin' wat else will happen to her.

she cry's knowin' that it may not be good.
sittin' in the corner,
with tears runnin' down her face,
she wonders "what and why?"
what did she do to deserve this and why?

livin' with a messed up family.
her sister cutz,
and her parentz lie.
she askes "dear god why?"
then she begins to cry.

her lifes fallin' apart,
with more fears.
where did they start?
she falls asleep not knowin' wats to come.

a few years later things get better.
her sister no longer cuts,
her mother doesnt lie that much,
no longer is she abused,
but she still doesn't see her dad.

she dreams of her fathers love,
and misses him dearly.
but she wont let that stop her.
she will fight for his love.

for now on she'll stand strong.
she won't let neone else fall,
if she can she will help them...
someway, somehow?