Caught in the twilight of my own uncertainties,
stripped of my ability to love purples and blues.
Fingers blind to the texture of your skin tremble,
afraid to touch.
Rough or smooth?
Which would I prefer.
Incapable of deciding upon a course of action
that would only lead to an end,
Of hedging and procrastinating
and refusing to take a side in this war of flesh.
Rough or smooth?
Why one should I prefer?
What I wouldn't give to lose myself in the experimentation of flesh
and not be left examining every curve and position
To reach an immovable and absolute conclusion.
Can I even?
Loneliness has carved itself around the caverns of my heart,
made room for itself in all the empty spaces.
And there are so many empty spaces,
filled only with the occasional sigh of blood moving where it will.
Stalling on the fuel of self-hypocrisy and indecision,
haven't I always known it must be one or the other,
If only for myself,
never for others.
Because I am fair and understanding in matters of the heart,
yet any vessel but mine.
Rough or smooth?
I would have me choose.
Author notes
Written about bisexuality and feeling that you have to choose one gender over the other. I myself have become confused, though it has more to do with what others think of me than anything else. Stupid but true. Enjoy.
Please tell me what you think
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What others think of you? Now YOU'VE confused ME. Did you start batting for both teams when I wasn't looking? Oh lords...your mother is going to hate me. First Ash...then YOU?! I'VE CORRUPTED YOU ALL!
*goes into semi-meltdown*
*recovers*
I'm okay. Deep breaths and gus fraaba. Ha...lovely poem, my dear. Do let me know what I'm missing here, though.
Loves ya.
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Refer to message. And again...cheer up dammit!
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Wow, now this is some deep writing...Ahhh and please please let go of wanting to please the crowd, there's always going to be somebody ready to criticize whatever choice you make or choose not to make! You are a wonderful sensitive talented writer and need no-one's approval, especially as regards your sexuality.. Wonderful this write , great imagery... I enjoyed it immensely. One question did you mean "An "rather than "and" in the beginning of line 15 "To reach an immovable..."??
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Lol, yes I did! I was re-reading it before reading your comment since its been awhile and caught that, too. Thanks for the sharp eye!
And thank you, too, for your kind words. They're very much appreciated. You do have a good point and really I do try not to let others' opinions sway me but it happens time to time.
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