Missing The Way It Was

Tears rolling down my face,
just at the mention of ur name,
sadness overwhelming,
something i can not contain.

I wish you knew the torture,
the suffering you're putting me through,
i wish you would understand,
i can't see future without you.

I know you trying to protect me,
I'd rather have you as a friend,
because losing you is only worse,
let me have anything but the end.

You love me too much to hurt me,
but the pain is worth having you,
I'm lost in this confusion,
I don't know what to do.

I don't know how to convince you,
that my life isn't worth living,
you saved me from the darkness,
i feel like i was dreaming.

You made me feel like there was hope,
You were my reason to go on,
But you're taking that away,
Pretending your love for me is gone.

I hate that i love you,
I hate that you love me back,
I hate that your ignoring me,
because you can't let us last.

My heart is aching as I write this,
my mind racing to get past,
because i'm try to pretend,
I'm not as fragile as glass.

Although i'm broken,
i still talk to you,
even though it hurts,
like fire burning through.

I know I'll miss the way it was,
and my heart will heal slow,
but somewhere in time,
I'll learn to let go.